#I JUST FEEL LONELY

[demisexual-eddie-diaz]

I wish that I could experience love the way that two cis men can

[meowticta]

yk how some autistic ppl have a community irl, as in, i have many friends who are autistic, i have family members who are also autistic,

yet i am the only one with tourette's, and it feels so fucking lonely? yeah, people get in someway what is autism, my high school is rlly supportive and stuff, friends r too, but when it comes to tics.

it's just different, i've always had this jealousy for people who could actually control themselves, i dealt with the ''im not normal, im different, and i hate it'' thought for soooo long.

autism and tourette's impact me on my daily life, they're so different though (obviously) but in the way people react to me, you can tell a person you r autistic and they'll be like ''okay!''

i tell people i have TS and they're like ''what's that?'' ''I thought it was a made up condition'' ''but you don't tic 24/7''

sorry can't explain my point bc words are not really formulating in my mind in a well written way,

its just so scary and lonely to have tourettes, and i which i could meet someone, who deals with the same shit i do everyday, laughing at the tics, with the consent of the other, trying to help eo in tic attacks without being... weird about it, not being JUDGED.

[set-wingedwarrior]

I know it's supposedly better than fighting over ships all the time, but this thing where when a ship becomes popular enough then everybody starts shipping it or share stuff about it is really getting under my skin.

How am I supposed to "curate my experience" if everyone sooner or later will start posting my notps? Who am I supposed to follow? Figuring out who is safe is getting harder, and even the ones that I trust end up disappointing me, which is even worse because I end up feeling betrayed.

This mandatory multishipping situation is a nightmare

[inwarvictory]

am I the only one who thought 2023 was okay? like yes it could’ve been better but it was okay

[phagethemage]

I want to be wanted. To be held and cared for.

Is that too much to ask?

[garbean]

I love dunmeshi for the like.. built in horror of consumption. Like they eat to survive, they eat to honor their prey, they eat to possibly mourn someone. Laios eats monsters because he wants to learn more about the things he loves, Senshi eats monsters to feel included in the ecosystem because he didn't fit in with the outside and with most creatures in general, Chilchuck DOESN'T eat as much as he could because eating too much could kill all the party members, Marcille eats monsters and hates it but she still does it because she'll die before she could save Falin.

[thebrainrotsreal]

Drew this real quick because I fucking love these two so much ???? Especially Bee. I wish they interacted more so badly. PLEASE.

Also learning how to draw these guys.. slowly.

[paintedcrows]

Some Fords! (and Martin K Blackwood is also there)

[mienar]

good morning bakery 🍞🥖

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[hinamie]

god, i wish i knew you back when i was a kid / but when you stare into me now, it feels like i did

[nothingbizzare]

Cold winds and warm hands

[fox-guardian]

[ID: Drawings of Martin Blackwood from The Magnus Archives on gray backgrounds. He is a fat white man with freckles, dull red hair with white streaks, and a matching beard. His eyes are a pale gray.

The first image is two headshots of him making a disappointed expression. He is wearing round glasses and a white collared shirt. The first drawing shows him with his hair down in a mullet style, bangs falling over his eyes, and the second shows his hair slicked back with only a couple strands hanging down.

The second image is a full-body drawing of him in a three-piece suit. It is a very dull blue. He is also wearing matching shoes and a pale gray tie, and his glasses are drawn gold. He also has a gold chain hanging from his vest pocket. He is standing with one hand in his pocket, the other adjusting his jacket. His hair is slicked back, and he is looking over his shoulder with a neutral expression.

The last image is just Martin's eyes over the seasons. Seasons 1-3 (one drawing) are a rich brown, and his eyebrows are bright red. The expression is wide and friendly. Season 4's pair is a pale gray with pupils frosted over, and the eyebrows are the duller red. The expression is tired. Season 5's are the rich brown with bright red brows, but with a ring of gray around just the pupil of the eye. The expression is annoyed, eyes rolling. end ID]

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finally finished the lonely martos. enjoy his hairline

[tahopo]

we truly regressed when people started buying into the genderbending is inherently transphobic thing. yeah that twelve year old being inquisitive and having fun on deviantart was your enemy all along.

[phagethemage]

I want to be wanted. To be held and cared for.

Is that too much to ask?

[adhd-merlin]

I enjoy the "sending my gay son to homophobia kingdom" jokes as much as the next person but, to be fair to hunith, I think people forget how unsafe ealdor was implied to be for merlin.

right in the first episode, in her letter, hunith tells gaius that she's afraid of what people in ealdor might do to merlin if he was found out (he is so clearly at odds with people here that, if he were to remain, I fear what would become of him). so afraid, in fact, that she packed merlin off to gaius as soon as she found out that will knew about his magic. it sounds like the two of them didn't even get the chance to say goodbye, so it must've happened very quickly:

[transcript from episode 1x10]

given hunith's fear, there's no reason to believe that people in ealdor were much more tolerant towards magic than people in camelot.

then, in episode 5x03, we see an instance of villagers taking matters into their own hands and attempting to burn an old woman on the pyre for being a witch. while this happened in camelot, it didn't have much to do with the king's laws – on the contrary, the villagers even tried to do it in defiance of arthur's direct orders.

I can imagine this happening in other villages — and ealdor is, as hunith wrote in her letter, a small one. Would it be easier to hide there, or in a city where hundreds live and nobody knows you? better yet, under the protection and tutelage of somebody who could teach you how to control your random outbursts of magic? she had no way of knowing merlin would end up spending most of his time under the prince's nose.

then, of course, there's the fact that merlin was not happy in ealdor. although in episode 1x10 he tells will that he didn't want to leave and that his mother made him, he also tells arthur in an earlier scene that he left because he did not fit in anymore and "wanted to find somewhere that [he] did". (was he lying to will when he said he wanted to stay, to soften the blow of him leaving? perhaps; though it's likely that he actually felt torn about it).

as merlin painfully admits to gaius later, the years before he moved to camelot were the loneliest of his life. and hunith would certainly have noticed her son's deep unhappiness.

so, to get to my point — hunith's choice wasn't as crazy as it sounds. sometimes the only option you're left with is sending your gay son to homophobia kingdom and hope that things turn out all right for him.

[teddybeartoji]

been thinking a lot abt fwb!gojo today.... this is his first time ever doing this kind of a thing btw. i do not think he sleeps around AT ALL. but with you, he just... you start off as very good friends but then it keeps escalating – you start sitting closer and closer, your thighs always touching as you lounge on the couch. his hands seem to always find your waist in public, your seem to be in his hair more and more. and the thing is... satoru isn't all that good at deciphering his own feelings. he isn't entirely sure what this is; the butterflies in his stomach whenever you laugh at his jokes, the warmth that spreads under his skin whenever he sees you bend over. it's weird. he doesn't know what to do.

so, when one night you inch closer with your hand on his thigh, he lets you. he welcomes you with open arms. you ask whether it's okay or not and he lets out a shaky yes, his cheeks burning with something new, his eyes low and heavy as he stares at your lips. you feel so good on top of him, your body flushes to his and he thinks about how perfect this is. how much he likes it. the night is like a wet dream for him, something he's always dreamed off but when you leave the bed and hop into the shower without giving him a kiss, he doesn't even know what the weight on his heart means. where it comes from. he doesn't ponder over it for too long though as you step outside the bathroom in a shirt way too big, his shirt. he watches you get dressed and hums when you joke about his bed hair. he thinks you look gorgeous. he doesn't ask for you to stay – if this is what you want, to leave without the desire to continue your adventures from the last night, then so be it. satoru wants you to be happy. you tell him it was good and that you'd like to, perhaps, do it again and he can taste you on his tongue when he says that he feels the same. satoru will take every crumb you'll give him with a smile on his face. he won't complain and he won't ask for more, not yet at least. for now, he'll be completely and utterly at your mercy, a lapdog for you to play with whenever you so desire to do. a selfless kind of love.